Hope tomorrow will be a happier day for you! Don't wish to see you feeling so down, makes me feel sad, feels useless that I can't make you smile...

It just dont feel right...

There are so many prettier girls around me.. hotter body, with bigger boobies, sexier mind.. sometimes are intelligent, humorous.. and with a pretty smile, perfect height for the heels, nicer figure in tight dresses..

I feel so demoralized now.

Very.

An invisible attachment in between.

If you want it, you fight it

“@MentionTo: #MentionTo your friend who has a dick on his nose just like Squidward.”

only he knows who will I mention this to...hahah our joke

Rainy night. 

Just feels like yesterday when we started a new chapter in our life.. And now the book has no more pages for stories to be written on, it is then left on the shelves untouched.

:'(

if only life is this simple, waking up to the sun shining in front of me, turning in when the sky is filled with stars... life's good. life could be good.

Hmmmmmmmmmmm

I'm indecisive.

At times, I told myself I wanna be wild. Wild like a teenager having lots of fun, drinking, shopping till my bank hits zero, hang out with friends, enjoy life, dye my hair ash brown with dope highlights, dress up pretty to town everyday...

I am gonna do a few of them soon.

I hope.

I need to live a life as a teenager, for once, for real, before I can't.

I am officially a diploma holder!

Congrats to myself, and to all the other 2011 graduates who has successfully walk through these 3 years of poly life despite the ups and downs.

I felt something which I thought I'd never felt; the feeling between "I am performing on stage" and "I am going on stage to receive my certificate". The latter was pretty unexpected. Before that I was like, "it's gonna be the same old feeling like performing on stage, againnnn, whatsmore the stage is my brother lah." Instead, for once, the stage is a stranger.

I am feeling anxious and excited for that few seconds that includes walking to the center of the stage, shake hands, smile into camera, and head off. Just that few seconds, I swear, it has became the most precious moment in my life. :')

How exactly that feels? Hmm, in my parents' perception but using my simple logic, it's like seeing a baby hamster grow up from a tiny red fetus to a fat animal. The growth stages, the patience are all priceless. I pretty much think that's how my parents were feeling, their baby girl has grew up and is 20 now and has just graduated.

So, I felt really happy to see all my friends sharing the same joy as I do, but the thought of us might be distanced apart sooner or later kills my heart. Who says we can't find true friends in poly? Well I did, if you don't, you just simply suck. :)

Great. My first day of a new chapter. Got to start my brain engine and get down to serious business now!

p/s No more delays!


Last but not least..

Dad and mom


My best friends since year 1, whom share the same interest as me :)

The rest at my fb page!

Gd9 x.