Wednesday, May 11, 2011
The final lap
Tomorrow will be a new beginning to a new phase of life.

3 years ago, I complaint so much about doing powerpoint slides every single day, having a learning system that starts from 9am to 5pm, the daily 2 and a half hours of break is really still not enough, tasked to complete worksheets and sometimes the questions are either short but difficult or long but easy... well well well.... 3 years later, I am graduating in less than 24 hours' time.

This journey has taught me so much, making me realized so many new things. Be it studies, dance, friends, emotions, they all meant something to me and has definitely help me in my growing up stage.

Studies:
I had a 2.8 GPA during Year 1, I thought I could maintain that way throughout, but apparently I was wrong. Haha. It dropped to 2.6 (rounded up) at the end of the third year, but I am still pleased to know that I only had 2 Ds among the numerous modules I had.

Nobody likes studying, for me, it's a yes and no. Yes to the ones I dearly loved, No to the others that I truly hated. But one thing I learned for sure, is that no matter what we're doing, nothing starts easy, everything will started out to be difficult at first. It's up to us to decide whether we want to see things positively- which is that things might turn out good, or negatively- which is things that might give us a hell time. I'm glad I decided to hang on to tough times and managed to pull through.

For this, I am proud of myself, proud of my motivation and my constant belief in myself.

Dance:
I never regretted joining Hiphop IG (SGC) during Year 1. I remembered clearly the reason why I want to be in. Die-die must get in. I knew I have wasted my teenager youth on other stuffs with lesser interest, when dancing is my love. I knew I wouldn't have a chance to dance again when I stepped into the working society, or probably when I grow up. I don't want to miss this chance anymore. I.Am.So.Gonna.Dance. And because of this constant reminder that "When we grow older, we've more responsibilities and dancing might not even be possible by then", I stayed in SGC for 3 years... and counting :)

SGC has given me much opportunities to perform on stage, push me to my limit to improve myself, going for battles, learn different genres --- these are the physical part.
SGC has also taught me many reasoning of life; loving people, bonding with people, disliking people, unhappiness, fun times, enjoyable yet tiring practices, different thinking in everyone's mind, the should dos and shouldn't dos, politics, economics, people to work with, ways to handle people... oh gosh they just go down the list --- these are mentally involved in me.

But I must be grateful, especially to the first batch of SGC, and probably the "ancestors" of SGC, SMC. They taught me so many things and they're to be seen as my second family. I really wanna thank Rey CA Syafiq KelvinT JC Thumb Matt Abang Jason Jiawei Ash Dehui Suling CherieC Shijia Junhao DY Yauming. They consists the "ancestors", first and second batch of SGC. They guided me through so much. Ups and downs, emotionally, physically, anything, sexually definitely... I srsly learned so much..

Of course, not forgetting the ones from third batch onwards. Muz Sajuto Sanjit Nat Imky Fara CherieW Raizal Jon Aisyah Shark Melow. Because your batch is different from us, that makes you guys special. In fact, each batch are special in some ways. You all allowed me to see things in many different ways. You guys have your own belief, stick to it. I know you guys can do it one day. One day. but just don't forget about us/me.. :)

From dance, I learn that there are endless possibilities in many things we do; we just have to take time to explore and know what we rly want or up to. And there is no right or wrong in anything we do, just that it gonna make some sense and better be the best choice. There are times we fall together, and that's the time we should hold each other and stand right up together; that's what SGC is about; one family, one love.

There're so many things I wanna say about SGC, but it just slowly slipped off my mind.. getting old..

One thing that'll never slipped off my mind, is my love for SGC.

Once a SGC, forever a SGC.

Friends:
I've made a lot of new friends, considering I have to change class almost everyday from Year 2 onwards and plus the same old cliques during Year 1. I'm so happy my number of friends increased so much over the years! Reason being, who likes to be alone? Haha, but the main reason is I get to find friends that I could categorized them under just-friends, friends, good friends, close friends, best friends, true friends, forever friends. Haha I'm serious shit.

I've seen friends with the worst attitude/character, or the ones with really great personality. But however different each of them can be, I always believe in one thing: Accept who you are, not what you are. No matter how bad you can be, I wouldn't blame you because you're born this way! Easy! Simple reason like this. (Except for people who really is annoying, and is not by nature, THAT is a total different story)

Again, learning things from different friends. Some people can be really stubborn, some can be lovely and understanding, some are those with listening ears, some who're totally NOT a listener, some are quiet in disguise, some are totally different when in sch and outside... many more! shesssh...

Well, remember, the people we met have stories behind them, don't hate because they're annoying to you, don't expect to totally love them because you've to! But just stay neutral and like and accept the people around you. Btw, don't hate, it's a waste of time and energy.

I'm glad I've my circle of friends, especially that lovable clique of people.



Sigh...
RP Life....
:')


p/s pardon my English, sometimes I make mistakes while just typing whatever's in my head.. probably most of the time hah
p/p/s I wish this could be an exception and be shared to the world, apparently I still prefer to stay secretive like this ;)
Sunday, April 17, 2011
心痛
Saturday, April 16, 2011
The best thing about army social night is the guy will bring his girlfriend to the dinner and show his friends who his girlfriend is, and be proud to have her.

I want that day to happen to me too.
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
I love to take cute photos with a bf; it makes me feel happy
I love to dress up pretty to look good when I'm with a bf; it makes me feel happy
I like to go to places with a bf; it makes me feel happy
I don't insist but I like a bf to be there when I do shopping; it makes me feel happy
I like hugs from a bf; it makes me feel happy
I like forehead kissings; it makes me feel happy
I tend to give a bf freedom bcuz I know he needs it; it's just being reasonable
I don't hope for a 100% possessive bf but I do hope he knows the limit of it; it's a fundamental

i don't know... am I asking too much or it's just the usual things that I see from what most couples do and I get jealous becuz they done it which I don't really get to do it?

More to the latter, I guess.
Monday, April 04, 2011
And after the storm, there will always be a rainbow
Friday, April 01, 2011
I could see myself thinking so much about you for this time being.
May this period be over soon.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Floor The Love 2011
It was definitely an enriching experience for me, and to be able to go through the audition round and be at Top 16, I think it is a good but could be done much more better. I am pretty disappointed in myself, that my ears shut on me on the wrong time and the layers in the music seems to merge to become one, not allowing me to interpret them out. Very disappointed much. I felt my audition round did so much better... I know there is gonna be the next time but, I always set every single battles an expectation to reach, and for Floor The Love this time round, I failed to meet it.

Well it has ended so I should get over it then. Gonna move on and start training on my musicality wherever and whenever I have my earpiece plugged in my ears.

:'(
Friday, March 25, 2011
Metaphor
When a cake is ruined, you can never get back the similar one, because the recipe is gone forever
People do come and go, never pin hopes on them and don't expect things will be special; it never is and will never be
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
This sat will be my second major battle in my life. All I am hoping for is to get through audition round...just that and I'm contented. I know we should be aiming higher, but I really don't wanna let myself down, knowing the standard i am at, I do not have a 100% confident in myself. Well, just gotta be Audrey and swaack it out.


P/s I am Audrey, my character's name haha. Mel's shakalakabombom is still the best name ever
We just can't stay the same forever
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Fibbles(iPhone4)....
.....is the new Poo (HTC)
Monday, March 07, 2011
Now that my skin tone has become tanner and more uneven, I am super conscious of what I am wearing and how do I look like. It's the colors I guess. This season, I have to get a romper, a toga maxi, a jumper, and a normal peasant blouse. Argh. So much for being a girl, I have to spend on stuff like this which really didn't help me at my saving!!!!!!
Sunday, March 06, 2011
Top few favouites from the trip
To summarize my trip, I actually picked a few photos of the places/things I loved/enjoyed at Phuket, edited them and posting up here.

Not in order:



Factory (Nightclub)
(Considered) the most decent nightclubs I feel one should go if you were to feel the mood of their local clubbing. Only with better crowd, but the music is not what I actually expected.


Amber Residents's Room serviceeee!!


HIGHLY RECOMMENDING you all to go to this place for thai traditional massage.
Please don't go to those roadside massage.....


My main aim for this trip is a dream come true!! I love the water at around Phi Phi Island. Especially you're allowed to do snorkeling there! Please do snorkel if you manage to go to the islands.


The speedboat I am on has my favourite number and colour on. Hehe.


Breakfast at Amber Residents. Totally digging the toasted bread HAHA


The uncountable benches and umbrellas that cost money if you're using it


Speedboats lining up at Phi Phi Island... we're not alone!


-insert snorkeling photo here-
I love to snorkel I swear! Imagine the fishes swimming freely around you, and biting you for no reasons, it's damn cool! Wish I had a underwater cam with me..... oh well......

This should be all! :)

Saturday, March 05, 2011
I am back from my long-awaited holiday at Phuket. These 4 days 3 nights really meant and helped a lot to me, physically and mentally. I'm glad I'm away from the world and be with my love to enjoy the timeless moments together.

However, life is back to normal. The things that are being put aside and ignored, are just period. Now that my holiday is over, I am starting to plan things all over again. But I am doing this wholeheartedly with a motivation behind me; our next goal ahead. :)
Monday, February 28, 2011
I am feeling....
Oh no. Why sia... yeah sia... how sia.....
//27 Feb
Yesterday could be another best day spent over at Jason's 21st advanced bday chalet. I am thankful for the good company I am with because they make me feel life is really good. It's not an overrated wild night, but just that once-in-a-while fun makes me feel that I kinda like chalets, no matter how filthy how tired we all can be/are, the fun is always there. I like the coziness when everyone comes together, and also getting to know new friends around. Oh god I really love these bunch of people, and among these people, I am happy to know that I have big brothers around, which I always wanted to have (not one but a few) :)

And I will be uploading few of the photos over here, when Sharlene has edited them and post 'em on facebook!


Also, will be flying in 10 hours time.
This could be fun.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
photobooth leftovers
photobooth piled up with numerous pictures and not being posted up.
here goes. a few!


weeks back.... love my lashes!




bathed my little hammy


and few days back, enjoying KOI on a rainy day

Wednesday, February 23, 2011
because u mean so much to me
The dream was so real,
That even my tears literally ran down my cheek.
A sigh of relief was what I first did when I opened my eyes,
And next I found myself calling you to make sure it's really a dream.

Why, that dreams like this could kill my heart?
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Monday, February 21, 2011
“Like the stars, fading with the halo of the vanishing moon.
Like the ocean, falling and whispering against the shore.
Nothing ever really goes away —
it just changes into something else.
Something beautiful.”